Today I want to share something that touched me very deeply. I experienced something which showed me God’s grace and his greatness on my own level.
We always say that God works in mysterious ways. What do we mean by that? It seems as if it’s used to try and fill this understanding we have of God, but it fails majestically.
Why? Because, if we only say it and don’t seek the mystery of it how will we know?
Today, my mystery was a loss of a very special person that I hold very dear.
Allthough, a loss may seem as a terrifying experience and very hard to experience. Today, I revealed its mystery.
I never felt more peaceful and trusting in God’s will as today. I lost, but my heart smiled and tears of joy came rolling down my cheeks in each one of them holding preciously a piece of my loss.
I felt blessed.
Not that I was happy of losing her, no off course not. On the contrary, a part of me was indeed deeply sad. She was always there for me, and knowing that now she will not be a part of my happiness or sadness does not leave me indifferent.
But, I was peaceful and completely submitting to Allah’s will in a way that I only prayed He would give me strength to do so.
Most people only find God in success, today I found God in defeat. And it never felt so serene and peaceful to lose.
It is in that moment that when I prayed the evening prayer, surah al Asr came to my mind. And indeed, it is with time and with patience that we will never lose. Just as it takes time to unfold a present, so does time unfold and reveal a mystery. Be ready when it happens and embrace it. It is truly a God given gift. Mysteries come in all sorts of ways, be open for them.
My gift today was losing.
He’s sending you these gifts, embrace them. Not only the good ones, but also the bad and hard ones.
God never makes us lose something if it is not to replace it with another. Not in the material sense, no. In something much deeper, in something you can’t even describe.
Seek and reveal.
Make sure you replace it with the revealing of the mystery and hold it dearly as a lesson, a reminder of His will and His Grace. As He reveals to us in His book in Surah al Baqara verse 164.
“Inna fee khalqi assamawati wal-ardi wakhtilafi allayli wannahari walfulki allatee tajree fee albahri bima yanfaAAu annasa wama anzala Allahu mina assama-i min ma-in faahya bihi al-arda baAAda mawtiha wabaththa feeha min kulli dabbatin watasreefi arriyahi wassahabi almusakhkhari bayna assama-i wal-ardi laayatin liqawmin yaAAqiloon.”
Indeed, in the creation of the heavens and earth, and the alternation of the night and the day, and the [great] ships which sail through the sea with that which benefits people, and what Allah has sent down from the heavens of rain, giving life thereby to the earth after its lifelessness and dispersing therein every [kind of] moving creature, and [His] directing of the winds and the clouds controlled between the heaven and the earth are signs for a people who use reason.
Use your reason to let this unfolding gift be your way to give life to your soul. Just as Allah swt alters day and night, let your own mystery alter your heart to let it live a bit more than it did before.
May Allah grant us all the patience and strength we need in this Dunya and hold us firmly on His path and to always be among those who seek and reveal.